WAL-TRON 3030

What a perfectly splendid time for my computer to permanently refuse to turn on.

(yes, I have thesis backups, except for the complicated font files)

It's been a little while since my last post -- but more to the point, I've grown unsure that I want that post to represent The Most Current Leigh.

My computer is completely inoperative. All the data on that hard drive is probably lost forever. This includes:

• the last five months of work on my summer research project (on which I have to give a presentation in two weeks)
• my entire music library
• the last five months' worth of:
  • AIM conversations
  • China photos
  • MLLL data
  • the recording of Danny Schmidt's show
  • etc.

As you may have guessed, I have a five-month-old backup CD. So that's something.

I have, despite all that, been doing okay. This is once again Leigh in Turn Over A New Leaf Mode, though I'm perhaps more serious about it than ever before. Though I say that every time. At any rate, I was entirely prepared for Latin class this morning, which felt good. I'm not on top of everything, but I'm trying. Harder than I ever have before.

I am coming to the conclusion that it has gotten to the point where any moment that I spend enjoying myself in self-centered joy is a moment that I cannot spare. I have responsibilities; I have things to do, and I don't even know what my life would look like if I actually fulfilled them all for once. How much time, if any, would be left in my week. It may be that I can work 24/7 (sleeping 7 hours or so a night) and still not accomplish everything. If that's the case, then I will look at changing my responsibilities. But I can't even speculate on that until I KNOW, for the first time in my life, what I am capable of when I behave like a responsible human being.

Bed time now.